its only 1530.. and I have my 5 minute appointment with Zac and Graeme at 1610 to get my exam results.. There are no words to describe how I feel right now.. as much as I have tried everything to psyc myself out.. to not be freaked out and to think that very best of my results.. but its just not working.. right now I am an emotion wreck on the inside and all I want to do is get my results and either cry or reward myself with icecream. I am trying to stay calm on the outside but inside I'm just shaking.. I suck at this.. my nerves aren't being helped with the realization that no one takes me seriously.. almost everyone in G and S still thinks of me as a first year and I dont think that many of the masters students take me seriously either. I'm a damn good scientist (I believe) but quite frankly I can't be anally serious all the time. I can do the work.. I love being in the lab.. how many students express that they actually LIKE being in the lab? I did titrations yesterday and that was a lot of fun. even though I had to do it manually and Zac (I told you I would blog about it) scared the crap out of me and made me jump and almost made me spill my sample.. but it really was quite funny. as much as I hope he never does that again.. it was quite a riot and still is funny. I never had this much fun or comoradory with most of my teachers from my old university. I rather like being able to talk with my professors as if they actually take an interst, instead of being afriad to even ask questions like some of my old profs. I think this is what makes people more respected, that they don't have their nose in the air and are so hung up on their own ego. I had a substitute teacher once in highschool who used to make us call him by his title "Dr. whateverhisnamewas" and would get mad if we didn't call him by that because he worked so hard to get his title and blah blah blah. I understand its hard work and I hope to have that title one day but I'm not gonig to get pissed everytime someone calles me Ms. instead of Dr. because thats a waste of emotion :)

anyway.. 25 minutes now.. argghh!!