First of all, I had a great international christmas. It was really great to spend time at Laura's with Dafni. Of course what we did most was just drink, talk and stare at the television. But it was really good, and that meant that none of us were alone..

I dont think people really realize how small of a world this is. No matter what country you come from or cultural background.. we all have the same problems. maybe problems isn't the word for it but we have all the same issues.. really we do.. whether it be some sort of religious conflict in oneself or if its the feeling of lonelyness when people aren't around. I have this feeling.. that I've scorched (not completely burned) some bridges.. Like that feeling that you've done something wrong and can't quite put your finger on it.. It was never my intention. I think maybe, some people may think I need to grow up and act my age.. but I'm sick of being serious all the time.. I act younger because I've had a lot of responsibility in my life that perhaps a lot of people don't understand or that maybe its not that big of a deal really.. I take things too seriously.. I get hurt when someone is just taking the piss of me.. and its stupid.. its stupid to be worrying about my lack of love life when I have a lot that I need to focus on. maybe I'm just a creature that shouldn't be left alone on their own for too long.. like maybe a puppy.. but I can guarentee you I'm not about to piddle all over the place and eat shoes.. but kinda the same idea..

BUT instead of feeling sorry for myself, I am going to eat some spaghettie and watch the Phantom of the Opera.. Jennifer helped me pick out my movie from 4000 miles away :) LOVE IT!! :)