Lunar Eclipse! So my mind, body and heart have been all over the place the last few days and every night around 2am I seem to wake and not be able to get back to sleep. At first I thought I must not be tired enough or my mind was sneaking up on me in the middle of the night catching me when I am off guard. This morning I checked my bank account and unfortunately it looks like I have been scammed - an unauthorized transaction from an ATM in New York has emptied my account. This shouldn't be too much of a problem but the more I thought about it and gave it energy the bigger it got so after contact my Mum and asking her to contact bank I had to let it go and worry about them canceling card/account when or if it comes to that. Meditation started and we learned a new technique which involved saying a prayer with Jesus Christs name - which a few of us found a little strange but after trying it we were then able to do any mantra with words of our choosing: I chose my favorite: Hamm Sahhh (hand of good). Mantras and prayers are good to keep our minds focused on something which stops the mind from wondering. The yoga session was taken by our normal teacher Jennifer today and thankfully she mixed it up and kept us guessing which was good. My mind still wondered a lot and I couldn't help but feel all of my bad habits have come back - this can be frustrating as I have been working hard for the last month and to be so close to the end and to regress is disappointing. I try not to judge it and bring myself back to centre and concentration on my awareness. The lecture today is about devotion to good but in a non dualist way meaning we see god as our true spirit, the inner peace and dwelling from which everything arises and not god as in an external figure or form of the church. The lecture really hit home for me and gave me courage to keep searching for truth. Strangely I got the urge and the thought to continue on to Mazunte and take the scholarship that will pay for the upcoming silent retreat. I guess I have a lot to think about again as now I am again in two minds about what to do. I had lunch with my housemates sharing my thoughts and its really nice to get their opinions and advice - another thing I have learned - sharing thoughts, feelings your life helps you not to take life so seriously; something I need to do. It was then off for my daily walk to the dock before the rain came. In the evening we had a potluck dinner and I made my famous soy mince salad. We had a great turn out and shared a really special night with classmates and locals of San Marcos that had become part of our extended family. The food was out of this world - peanutbutter stirfry, guocamole, papaya cake, upside down pineapple cake, soups and a heap of other amazing dishes. Being vegan is great and it forces you to get more creative with your cooking and exploit a variety of different tastes.