Wouldn't it be luverly?

Sometimes (particularly when a bit tired or, hungover) my mind can wander to that place where it's probably best not to - yet, being only human it can't be helped! Watching the loving (surface view, at least) couples all over the Super Jet I feel slightly vulnerable. Not bone crushingly or anything. Just thoughtful.

I wonder why it has been so elusive to me? What am I doing wrong? It seems, sometimes that as if I'm the only one but we know that's not true. Yet, when you're here you wonder! I'm not bad looking, decent temperament, pretty considerate, a bit too opinionated and filterless sometimes...but, surely somebody can like that (sometimes). God knows I've had more therapy than the average queer! (Maybe too much!)

I will go up and have, to others and say Hi! Introduce myself but, you know what? It would be so nice and confidence lifting for someone to do it to me once in a while! It's funny you know: there have been a couple of times where I have plonked myself down in a bar alone or not and feel great - interestingly I get 'pity vibes'. I don't let it get to me but just find it's very strange how human interactions and thoughts work! It's rarer to get the 'good on you vibes' but great when you do! Just let me reiterate: these are the times I'm already feeling 100% fine! It's just been an observation.

I'm reminded that while anyone is on holidays; no matter how wonderful your surrounds, activities or experiences it is still part of life! Just because I'm in Santorini looking at views most would kill for it doesn't stop daily emotions and feelings! No one can (or should pretend to be) 'up' all the time! This will pass, as I realise it does, but I like to be honest and real in this blog so you realise the world is not always '...a bunch of bright daffodils..' and no matter where you are or what you do you can feel flat or alone!

I stress, no need to worry and if it didn't pass I'd sure tell someone.

Let's just keep it real. It's one of the things I pride myself on and like about myself. Hopefully someone else will one day too...a lot!

Anyway! Time to pull myself (up) and remember all the lovely friends and family I do have "with" me. I thank you and do appreciate your constant following, support, encouragement and humour!

I do love! I am loved and I do feel. Therefore I live!

Now! On with the journey: onwards and upwards...