31st March


Fact is, I am young and have choices in my life. I tell myself today, "Emma at least you have choices!"
I now feel guilty for even complaining, for not taking a step back and thinking how privileged I am to even be in the position I'm in right now. Silly girl!


I don't remember complaining in Uganda, never once wanting to just give up. Why the unexpected outlook here? I suppose I suddenly took it all for granted, money, freedom, youth, 'the world is my oyster' kind of thing, without looking deeply enough at who I was telling this all too. Some people say they can only dream to be in my shoes. I am beyond fortunate for where I am in my life, never forget that Emma!


Enough of this nonsense…


1st April

"Hen hao" (very good) said the 'noodle boy' in the Muslim restuarant, as he pointed at my nails. I had pained my finger nails red and blue. I pointed at his new hair cut, "Hen hao" Such simple Chinese to communicate but enough to make us widely smile.


2nd April


The Chinese Goverment block many website, Facebook, Twitter, YouTube to name a few and for seem reason I haven't been able to get onto my emma-uganda blog even though it's the same website as the one I'm currently using. Finally I've managed to read my blog again. In a few days time it would of been my 6 month point in Bulenga, Uganda.
'Yesterday I made 6 months in Uganda! Can you believe it!?' It's so weird looking back to the what was happening a year ago and now here I sit in my comfy chair after taking a hot shower and eating some delicious food. What a turnaround!
I do miss Uganda, there won't be a moment where I'll ever stop missing it but I do feel now, after much time my 'mourning' for leaving the people and country is slowly starting to fade. My sadness towards Uganda was because unfortunatly my final months being there were hard and sometimes gloomy and so I had a longing to go back to 'fix' these thoughts, to make my memories happy again, perhaps even start over by going back for a period of time. I had to be realistic...
I have talked to many people here, some just strangers and I just seemed to speak in a downbeat tone, always having to apologise after! I think though this is just what I've needed! I've had alot bottled inside since leaving Uganda and perhaps this has been a reason why I've found it so difficult to forget about the "Pearl of Africa" Since my many conversations, now days I speak about the beauty of the people and the nature, everything that has made Uganda forever in my heart and I guess I do feel that a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that I can again speak about beautiful Uganda, my old wonderful lifestyle in a positive, joyful manner :)



Em (thinking all usual!!) x x x



"Empty your mind, be formless, shapelss like water. Now you put water in a cup, it becomes a cup. You put water in a bottle, it becomes a bottle. Yoy put water in a teapot, it becomes at teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend"
-- Bruce Lee