This is a passage from "My Utmost for his Highest" by Oswald Chambers that has helped me a lot in the past few days and the past few years. It has stuck with me since the day heard it read by Agar in Chicago(RNW family):
"Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. THEN THINK HOW UNNECESSARY AND DISRESPECTFUL WORRY IS!"
I love that he doesn't just say it is unnecessary, because I already knew that and that never stopped me from doing it, but he says it is disrespectul too. I never really thought about that before, but it is true. God says he will provide for us, that we do not need to worry about our life, and if we do worry it is like saying to God - I don't believe you. I don't think you can or will do what you said you would do for me. Yes, we are not worthy of his care or provision, but he knows that and still he says "do not worry." Trust in the Lord and he will provide for you just like he promised he would do.

Hey guys, wow was I down! I was stressing and worrying sooo much about all the money and the plans, but eventually it was just too much for me and, thank God, I broke down. It may sound kind of strange to thank God for a massive nervous break down(it wasn't too massive:), but many of you know exactly what I mean, because like my father told me today, when I am weak I am strong. When I broke down, I broke down at the feet of God, I cried for help and he heard me, like he always does. He has rescued me from my despair, freed me from my worry and fear and I am feeling good! Maybe a little too good in fact, I feel just a little bit manic, but it's better than what I was feeling before:) I came home feeling sick to my stomach, because I am still trying to get over this strange stomach flu thing, and because my nerves were causing my stomach to tie itself in knots. I didn't know what to do next. So many plans to be made, money to be spent, things to do before I left - it was just too much. I grabbed my Bible, I reached for it like it was a life raft, and so it was. I read and prayed and cried and wrote and then I took a bath:) After my bath I read a little more and prayed, then I called my parents. After God they are my lifeline! They always make me feel better. They help me, they listen to me, they give me strength and combined with the power of God they brought about a miracle in me. Everything changed in an hour and now I have booked two of my hotels, I have made a list of things to do, and I don't feel overwhelmed by it anymore! Thank God! He has given me so much, in all the languages of all the contries of the world there are not words to describe what he has done for me. My heart speakes the words my mouth cannot:) Praise the Lord for this change, thank you God for loving me, thank you for hearing my cry and rescuing me from the darkness!
Love to all - Thank you so much for the prayers, they worked:)
Glory to God who gives without end to those who could never deserve it!
-Mikahla

Hey, get a phone card and I'll pay for it so you can call every night as you get settled in for the night. I just want to hear from you and know you're safe. Love, DAD P.S. It was great talking with you and hearing how God is teaching you to depend on HIM!!!!!

Hey girl, you got my prayers. It's a privilege to pray for you. Don't worry about the money. We will make a donation as our Chirstmas present to you and Grandma wants to help you out with your flights to and from Sweden. You should enjoy yourself. We will continue to pray for you, but $35 per night is cheap. Make sure its not a real dirty place and spend the money to be in a clean and safe place. I love you, DAD

O, and Dad, sounds like the drags were great! Wish I could have been there to see Tony set that record - it must have been crazy! Glad you are feeling better, Love you,ME

Pray for me. I need lots of prayer, I am feeling really discouraged. I am searching for hostels and places to stay down south and am not coming up with anything. The best I can find is about thirty-five dollars a night. The money and plans are really stressing me out and when i should be feeling excited about the week to come, I am just feeling sick to my stomach. It is going to be really expensive. Pray that I find something, pray that God would give me wisdom to make good choices and peace about the choices I make. If anyone has any grand ideas about where to stay in Cordoba, Sevilla, or Granada - let me know:)
Thank you all for your support and prayers!
Love, Mikahla

Hey, thx for your prayers, I'm feeling better. Had a great time with Brandon at the drag races. Tony Schumacher (the guy with the small child that you were talking to at Sonoma) set a world record in the very last race of the finals. That put him in first place by just 14 points. Even if he'd have won the race he would have been 6 points behind the leader after some 17 NHRA events during the last 10 months. He was able to get an extra 20 points for setting a world record. Wow! what and exciting finish. The crowd went wild. I can say I was there for the greatest comeback in drag race history. At the midway point of the season he was behind 386 points.
I am so excited about your trip for the next five days. I think you shouldn't take your lap-top, but take some good reading. You know, some fun reading. And you can also look at the sites along the way. You'd just have to worry about holding on tight to the lap-top. I think you should just relax and kick back. I know you can do it with God's help. I'll pray for you. I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great trip, love Dad

I made the crowns.
Roni & I went out to sushi.
I read a fiction book (western!)
I did laundry.
I did some javaScript homework.
I slept late.
It was a great weekend.
Poor Dad came home really sick w/ a cold.
JavaScript is really hard for me and now we are going to cover PHP, plus this week make cookies to remember you. Yuck!
I love you and will try to get the application tomorrow.
Mom

I also added some new photos (a bunch actually) on dotphoto.com - just remember it is worldreve / 5freckles to access the account. The new album is Nov. 13 , it is all un organized, but at least it is there:)
Love, M.E.

Hey guys, added a new journal entry and some pics! Nicole, great to hear from you sister! I miss you guys - tell Kassy I miss here! I am sad not to be able to spend Christmas with you guys this year, but you will all be in my thoughts and prayers! How is the house? I hope things are going well for you and your family, thanks for the note!
Love to all, Mikahla

Hey, Kahla!!!! I can tell you are really enjoying your experience abroad. What a wonderful opportunity. I'm so glad you seized the moment and took it for yourself while you can. Things change a lot as you grow and mature. I can tell from your writing that you are also maturing a lot while your away.
We miss you! Brandon and your dad are still in Pomona for the races until very late tomorrow night.
We are very proud of you, Kahla. You're quite a "young lady" ;-)
Love and hugs, Nicole

P.S Kassidy sends love too!!

Dad is gone and I am having a relaxing time by myself. Roni and I may go out on Saturday. I have crowns to make sometime this weekend. I finished Wilfredo's site finally and hope to get Charlie's site done too.
wilfredocordova.com Check out the final touches.
I am going to go get chinese now.
Love, Mom