Almost a year when the love of my life leave me...

On the process of healing and filling the missing part of my life then came a gorgeous THAI. I never missed reminding myself not to fall inlove with any 'THAI's' however...

August, it all started with an ice cream date and followed by the steak on the road. This is the person I've ignored for a couple of months tho I find it attractive with my first week of work. The fact of being thai barred me of wanting to get in touch with but, slowly the things that I never dreamed of becomes my happiness… THU fill in everything and "me kwansok gap khon".

Days, weeks and months had pass I can see myself enjoying the company that I supposed to have it with DJ. The goodness, the sweetness, the care and the everyday presence developed everything. I quit Kasosan and silom's night out for I became busy waiting for the moment to chat and talk to THU over the phone. I am still thinking of DJ tho but I kept myself entertained by.

One day, I wake up and looked into the mirror it's the thai face that I can see but my heart is still shouting for DJ. It's hard to figure it out if it's just because of DJ's absence or I am embracing the culture that I never dreamt of. But, WHY?!? I've been looking forward always for the weekdays to come. It excites me to go to my workplace and inspired me of working my job.

It's hard to fight for these feelings!!! But, it's harder to swallow again those words that I spit already (not to fall inlove with the thai) but I can't help it!!! I guess, John Depp was right saying that "You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see but, you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel". So, I'll just let myself to fall inlove again??!?

-little elephant with baby kemoo-