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Hey guys..
I'm finding this tough.
I think i've hit a point in my travelling, not sure why but it's not nice all the same.
What am I doing here? Not sure what this whole thing is about... it seems mindless. I wonder if this is my version of a very expensive 'Uni escape' that so many people cling to back at home.
This place, thailand, is beautiful but I cant seem to enjoy it. I've met some great people, and some god awful specimens of the human form. I enjoy the interaction but i just dont seem to have a purpose here.
I guess that's the point but it's still difficult to swallow.
I think it's hard being out here on your own, alot of the time people are here with friends and partners.
There are alot of moments when you turn to confide in someone about the questions that this place brings up, and you find no one there beside you. People are coming and going and there is no familiar. Usually i quite enjoy that but it's pretty difficult out here. It's not nice; there is no glamour and romance of the situation that traveller dreams are made of.
It's lonely out here, no matter how many people you talk to.
I was so sure that this was what I wanted to do, but now I am not so inclinded to say that.
If I'm honest I just feel like coming home.
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Rachel This may be of no help Nikki but sometimes it's the things that are tough at the time that help us understand who we are better and I have found in life that they are strangely the things in life we often look back on with affection. I sometimes think we are making our own history even thoughit may not be apparent to us at the actual time - whatever you decide to do, there is no wrong or right path. You're brain is processing so much new stuff right now and all that is familiar to you is being challenged (I suspect from all these miles away!?) so give yourself some time to adapt and try to take each day as it comes. Good luck and missing you in Hamsey Rd! R x
clare Hang in there my Wanzi, these WTF am i doing??? moments will pass. You will regret it if you come back now. Your Mum says you're ok and that you are going white water rafting? Excellent fun! Love you.xxx
oliver I am so glad this time has passed for you Nikki, be strong and remember in life the hardest things often turn out to be the best of things. You will have amazing days and you will also have really bad days as well, but the main thing is your seeing so much new and amazing stuff Nikki, we all miss you but stop thinking about home and go out and see the amazing things around you xxx
H Hang in there Nikki, like a roller coaster your going to have some up & downs. Get through the night & it'll be a brighter day. If you don't like one place move onto the next...pronto! Just don't give into the urge of returning. This WILL pass. I had the same same ;) when I was out there too xXx
Bart It's all part of the balance of life game....you'll be fine. :-) :-)
Annita Mosssop Hi Nikki, Jan just gave me your blog address. Excellent, you're doing brilliantly. Basically you're living life!! Enjoy and come back with fabulous memories and ideas for the future.. love you..Annita XXX
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Klair Just discovered your blog as i am also leaving to go travelling solo on the 5th of december so not long left to go and starting to feel a bit anxious. I hope as I read on u start to feel better as I anticipate I may have similair thoughts once out there x