Today in one word? Bueno.
I woke up at a different time than I wanted, but I woke up.
I couldn't get on my Prayer Call this morning, but I got on my train to school & made it safely.
I was hungrier than I thought I'd be, but at lunch time I had the means to obtain sustenance.
I was tired after school, but I walked & made it back home.
I wanted to be alone, but I spoke with my (host) parents and grew that much closer to them. They also asked if I wanted to take a selfie with them ^_^ I did. It's pictured above.
I found out today that I no longer have enough financial aid to cover BADA, but I'm going.
I DON'T KNOW HOW, BUT IT IS HAPPENING.
I'm in Buenos Aires right now. I am living in the capital of Argentina, strengthening my relationship with God and falling in love with his creations (and, as a result, Him) day after day. People truly are amazing. People are amazing because God is amazing. He'll use people that don't acknowledge Him to get through to those that do. Sometimes I'll feel myself smiling because something a classmate said reminded me of whatever I'm studying at the moment. Right now, my focus is Jesus. That may seem obvious. However, I say Him because I've allowed other Christians to lead me, rather than Christ Himself.
I believe God places people in our lives for specific purposes. Some of these people are meant to lead us, but they are never meant to replace the Lord. He is always and forever. Never-changing. Constant. People are not. People are fickle. I certainly am at times.
This entire day was "bad," on the surface. Things were going wrong & backwards & sideways, but every single thing worked out. Problems I didn't even know existed were solved well before they came to my attention. I'm such a sensitive person that I'm often bombarded with stimuli. Many of y'all (okay, probably all of you) know that I'm quite emotional. I dislike pain, discomfort, shame, etc., so I dislike for others to feel those emotions. In class, the subject of Caitlyn Jenner came up and the discussion made me uncomfortable. I was allowing my heart to be influenced by people instead of focusing on Christ.
This has been my focus since I left campus in May: deliverance from people bondage. I was loving people out of a desire for others to feel love. While this may not seem bad on the surface, it certainly wasn't right. I ended up hurt when others wouldn't receive my love. & that was my problem. It wasn't my love they needed! It still isn't. It isn't deep enough. It doesn't heal. It doesn't save. It isn't even constant. Wake me up in the middle of a nap and see how much love I have. If your name isn't "Grandma," probably not much. The people I was loving on need the love of Jesus Christ. I do too. We all do. Yes, you do. His love will only shine through us when He is our focus.
So in order to "save the world with a few good friends and a whole lot of Jesus," (my usual response to "what do you want to do with your life?") I NEED A WHOLE LOT OF JESUS. I mean, I think that would help lol. So, yeah. I'm learning. I'm growing. It's awesome (:
Btw, I have friends. Good friends. They're nice. They're great. Many of them are not the same friends I had 6 months ago. Or 6 days ago. And that's just fine :) :)
I think I rambled a lot. Eh, no surprise.
Hasta luego!