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Lonely- pros and cons
Since I'm not keeping a great journal, I should write on here about some of my loneliness so later I remember (and I know it makes Kelly feel better that I'm not just running along the beach with a sexy Latino everyday haha jk!). Even though I'm still happy to be alone and I think Im meeting more people this way, there have been some times/ days that I felt extra lonely and I get to thinking about the future, needing a job, money, etc. It's just that I don't wanna go home and get sucked into the typical American routine, work 9 to 5 and start accumulating crap that just gives me more bills to pay. I miss my friends and family but right now I just dont imagine myself settling down in one place, not yet :-). So that kinda makes me feel pressured cause if I wanted to stay some place and teach English and volunteer, for example, I'd need to figure out things like Rafa, the car, the apartment, etc. It's just that staying longer than a few days or a week can have a lot of benefits, learning and experience. Of course I still love to San Diego too much to leave it for good.
It's just so funny remembering my first time in Costa Rica (3 years this month)... Looking back I have no idea how I communicated in Spanish, and some of the errors I made now I realize are hilarious. Some things that I was nervous about, like taking the bus, the cars driving crazy and way too close, poor people in the street trying to sell junk, now are totally normal to me.
So.... I know there's no need to make any decisions right now and you're all probably telling me to enjoy the moment- I AM, i promise. I'm so excited to be finally on this trip, sometimes I can't believe I'm in Colombia already! I can wait to see Brazil... So I am enjoying myself it's just hard sometimes not to think about the future and everything.
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Jenny I loved this entry!! It totally reminded me of all the feelings & things I felt from my first time in San Cristobal, Venezuela. I had the exact same sentiments about the driving, poverty, etc as well as currently being stuck in the "amerian" routine and am currently looking into grad school abroad to try and break out of this routine again!! (I'm also considering starting a travel blog on here, to blog about all my travels up to this point and in the future as well.) Any suggestions about/for the blog? -Espero que todo este bien contigo :-)
Deanne Lange It's great that you have friends who have had the same experiences and that you can realize that all of your "thinking" is normal. Sounds like you are sorting your life out and in the end you'll make better decisions for what you are really interested in for your future. Keep on trucking and I look forward to hearing about your next adventure. Love, Grandma
Danielle So you seem to keep freaking about about getting sucked into the "American routine" but honestly, IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT. You control your destiny... wait that sounds like someone an optimist would say, but I work a 9-5 job, have a car, an apartment, etc and I dont' feel tied down. You can take vacations, still experience life AND you'll have the money for it! On slow days at work I plan dream vacations that now I KNOW I can afford and WILL take. Growing up is scary... but there is NOTHING like the feeling of owning your own stuff, paying your own bills, being completely independent. In a way, you're doing exactly what I'm doing: being independent. When you find your perfect job, like I did, you'll be wondering what the heck you spent so much time freaking out about. Life doesn't HAVE to be a routine. Mine isn't :-)