Me and Fiona got our wee rental car today for our trip down south, so excited!! Once i had picked up the car i had to go back for Fiona who i had left sitting on a bench with the bags cause they were too heavy, i forgot how tricky one way systems were in cities! However i managed to get her and then had to drive out of Perth which we didn’t even know if we were on the right road, however it turned out we were and we actually got to Albany without getting lost once!! In the end i drove over 400kms from Perth down to Albany today. It was weird when we were driving along one of the road the forest around us was smoking as if it had been on fire recently, just assumed it must hav been bush clearing! Oh and i almost forgot the car is an automatic which is a bit crap as i like my manual ones, had to get the woman to show me how to drive it lol!

So Ryan dumped me today. Ok so some of u may not want to read this next bit because u will realise how screwed up i am and for wot is written here i mean no offence to anyone, its just my thought and feeling on the matter!

So Ryan had been pretty quiet and ignoring my txts for a while so i eventually txt him asking wot this silent business was all about and he turned round and said he wasn’t happy with how things were and he would talk to me later. So i kind of guessed he was chucking me and said well don’t wait to long as this isn’t fair on me. To which he replied “Well i cant speak just now but i’m just pretty much not happy with the long distance thing...i’ve done my best but i’m just not happy with it...i’m sorry coz i do think the world of u and please don’t think there is someone else involved coz there isn’t, i feel terrible...i’m just not happy with myself, but i don’t want to lose touch with u coz ur a lovely person. I know if u were here it’d b different”. So wot do u make of that?! Personally i think its a bit s*** that i had to force him to tell me and he did it thru a txt message, clearly doesn’t hav enough respect for me or doesn’t hav the balls to actually tell me wots going on! He does claim that he will fone me, but funnily enough i've never had this fone call!! Now the one thing i don’t get is how we made this work for over 8 months and i mean i b home in 3 and a half months but its only now hes ending it! It just doesn’t make sense to me!! There are 3 reasons as to y this has happened one he thinks i’m cheating on him, which is not a concern hes ever mentioned to me or he has cheated on me or is going to cheat on me. And tbh i reckon he has met someone else but is just to much of a coward to tell me!

And just for giggles am gutted at how may offers i’ve turned down since being away because i was with Ryan. But on a positive thinking note there are numerous reasons y its good it ended. I mean he was pretty s*** with keeping in touch with me while i’ve been over here, he didn’t even hav the time to talk to me on Christmas day, i mean who cant talk to their girlfriend on Christmas day when shes the other side of the world?! He also went to the gym far too much when i was at home rather than coming to see me haha! My plan now is to find a nice rich handsome Aussie who will treat me like a princess :D

I must admit tho after the mess i was in from my previous relationship ending i was quite glad that i didn’t want to hit the bottle automatically which was a nice wee surprise! I am however a little bit concerned as to how i will be when Fiona leaves me and i’m here all by myself because its not like i hav all my friends round me like i did in Sydney and Melbourne. However i guess i’ll just hav to wait and see wot happens. I am quite gutted i don’t hav me girlies from Glasgow just to give me a hug, some tea, popcorn, wine and mayb some bridget jones!! One of the things that really hurt was that my mother didn’t fone me L i txt her to say and then she just txt back saying “what can i say about ryan? It will b his loss. Lot good that does! Be strong! Enjoy life!” All i can say is that it might have been nice just to get a wee fone call to see if i was ok.

Now the strange thing is that although i was obviously upset when i found out, am not actually all that bothered about it, clearly i wasn’t as into this relationship as i thought! Must admit am far more gutted about loosing my ipod!