I've been meaning to write in this for so long but only just got round to doing it.

So the airport was as emotional as I thought it was going to be. I hated saying goodbye to everyone but was excited for my adventure. It seemed to go pretty quick once we were in departures and it wasn't long until we were on the plane. I couldn't believe the luxury of the plane! I've never flown with emirates before so was pleasantly surprised. You have your own tv, pillows, blanket and he food was incredible (usually I'm not that keen on plane food!). The journey to Dubai went pretty quick- I think I watched about 3 films and slept a little too. Dubai airport was incredible!!! So big! We were only there for 3 hours which flew by. The next plane from Dubai to Bangkok was great! I was sat on my own but they moved my seats for some reason and I was at the front where you get loads of leg room! Was fantastic! We'd had a McDonald's at Dubai airport as we were unsure when we'd next eat but it wasn't long in the journey when they started to bring round breakfast (at this point my body was confused as to when I should be eating with the time differences!) I didn't eat any of it at all. The journey was good, plenty of leg room meant I was comfy enough to sleep most of it so must have had 5 hours sleep.

Finally arriving to Bangkok airport reminded me of so many things- Jamie as he's been there so I liked the thought he could picture exactly where I was; Martha as she's obviously been there and also the hangover! Jamie and I had watched hangover 2 the previous night so it did make me have a little giggle to myself.

Finally getting our bags (which I'm proud to say I had on my back!) we then got on a little train thing to the other part of the airport where we could get our bus transfer from. This little bus took us to the other airport we needed our internal flight from. So that was more bag carrying and travelling but once we were there it was the next part of our journey! That was only a hour long flight with air Asia. By the time we landed we were all pretty knackered! We managed to get a taxi from the airport to our hotel straight away.

Our first hotel which was in krabi was amazing. It was a spa hotel so very luxurious! We arrived in the dark so it was hard to see the place in full but we went to a little restaurant on the sea front (I tried Thai food and they only gave me and mart a different dish but I was so hungry to complain so I ate it anyway!). It tasted like chicken in a oxo cube- needless to say not very nice! We then went for a few drinks at this reggae bar and got a feel for the place. Thai people are so lovely and polite!

The next day we spent the day by the pool which was lovely and I even managed to get a little tan line! :-) I wish we had spent longer in krabi- we didn't even get to go down to the beach as we were all pretty tired and there just didn't seem enough time. I'm glad we went though!

So next stop was Ko Phagnan. I was excited to go here for the full moon party and it seemed to have good reviews from what friends have said who have been. The journey there wasn't great- another mini bus then a coach then a ferry. I'd have a dodgy tummy that day as well so the ferry didn't help! Again we arrived in the dark so was hard to tell what the place was like. We headed out for some food once we'd arrived at the hotel. The hotel wasn't as nice as the one in Krabi but the location was superb! Our hotel backs onto the lovely beach and there's all restaurants along the front. Very beautiful and relaxing. Saturday we were able to explore more and we headed down to the beach and then had some food in one of the bars where we also went for our dinner.

The full moon party was amazing! So many people there! I was slightly anxious though as I'd heard a lot of bad things about it but then I guess you could have that with anywhere you go. The music was varied- I liked the fact it was different each bar you went to. I did imagine it to be different though- I guess I imagined it to be more like a rave with one genre of music and not loads of bars. It was still good though! I even found a bar called Emma's bar where I was then forced to order a bucket as I'd had my picture taken outside the stand (bit of a con but never mind!). I'm slightly regretting ordering that bucket now!

I am finding this whole experience very emotional. A lot more than I thought actually. I knew I'd be upset leaving Jamie and my family and fiends but I didn't think I'd miss them all this much! :-( Skype and FaceTime are a godsend though- I've seen Jamie every day so far and we speak all the time so it's helped me a lot.

I'm currently sitting on the beach on my own and it's fantastic. I'm glad I came away with people as I think doing it on my own I would have found the whole leaving Jamie process a lot harder as I'd have no one to talk to about it; but sometimes it's so nice to be on your own. I felt terribly hungover this morning and got very emotional and upset last night (no more buckets for me!) but speaking to Martha helped. She said I should go for a walk on my own for an hour or so as sometimes it helps. And you know what it has! So thank you Martha if you're reading this :-) I have actually never enjoyed my own company so much. Sitting here in the sun with the sound of the waves crashing against the golden sand makes me feel like I don't have a care in the world. And that's how it should be! I have felt a little suffocated at times travelling with 3 others, don't get me wrong nothing to do with them just it gets very intense being with one another 24-7. Time alone is definitely a good thing. I think I'm going to go for some food in a little bar by myself in a bit too. Once I've been in the gorgeous sea! :-)

I feel so much happier and relaxed about things since coming to this beach on my own. This is what it's all about- relaxing and enjoying myself.

I miss Jamie and I might be getting on the others nerves a little when I get upset but I am only human. I feel so lucky to have him and thank him so much for supporting me with this experience. Jamie if you're reading this I want you to know I love you more than anything in the world and even though we may find this hard I know in the long run it will only make us stronger :-)

I am lying here feeling very blessed- I have an amazing boyfriend, incredible family and the best friends ever. Even though you're all across the other side of the world I've never felt so close to you. I love talking to you all and I want you all to know I'm having a good time. Some days I've not enjoyed it but it was always going to be hard. I'm so excited for Australia and to see Christie. I know I'll feel less homesick when I see her!

Well that's my first blog entry done from Thailand- hopefully they all won't be this long as it's took me about an hour to write!

Love you all lots and miss you like crazy.

Until next time...adios amigos! :-p xxxxx