Just came off the phone to having a mammoth catch up with my mum and it was so nice to speak to her!

I think I need to put my most recent facebook status from yesterday before I go ahead with this blog...

"Recently I've been freaking out alot. Where am I going next? What do I really want to do in life? I need to hurry up and get this travelling done so I can get home and start my carrer, mortgage, family. Today I thought f*** IT! Why ruin the experience by stressing and having many sleepless nights thinning about it. To al the travellers out there, take each day as it comes, luve life as its your last day on earth and do what makes you happy. Good things comes to those who wait after all <3"

And it is true. I have been freaking out so much about what I'm doing with my travelling. Am I going the right way? Should I be trying harder to make things work with Euan? Should I be thinking about going home soon? What else do I really want to do? Should I miss out some stuff before going home? How will my mum take it if I stay for longer? It's really be stressing me out and I think that's why recently I haven't been sleeping (and making late night blogs!!) But yesterday I just thought of how lucky I am to have the family I have, to have the choice of where I want to go and how lucky I am to have met David and Lue and have plans to keep going on in Australia. So I decided yesterday to try to not plan ahead and just go where the wind takes me and hopefully I can continue on this journey until I am ready to go home. Which I know will come one day...

I felt so sorry on my mum though cause when we were on the phone tonight she said she was on FB on her phone and read, ""Recently I've been freaking out alot. Where am I going next? What do I really want to do in life? I need to hurry up and get this travelling done so I can get home and start my carrer, mortgage, family. Today... Cont reading" as it does on phones and she thought it was gonna say "Today I decided to come home" but instead it said "I thought f*** IT"!!! What a shame! But we had a wee greet and spoke about what I was doing and I'm so glad she understands what I am doing out here and that it is going to take longer than what I expected and I feel so lucky to have the family that I do <3 <3 Love them all xxxx