Tonight I watched Eat, Love Pray and just like the book I found it so boring!! Sacked the book halfway through but I watched the film to the end (snooze!)

But yet again I find myself at 2am unable to sleep, just thinking. Thinking about loadsa things, missing home, missing Euan, how I've been away from home for so long and it feels like I haven't done anything. Also thinking about when I'm going to have to go home. I don't want to go home soon but worrying that I have to cause I know my mum (and rest of the fam!) are missing me. Also thinking about many other things but I started thinking about the quote about how ' sometimes you need to lose yourself to find yourself' (kinda about what the while film is about)

When I came over here it was never for the intention of 'finding myself' or anything like that, but now I think has turned this way. I need to find my passion in life and to find a way to be happy in myself. Normally, I thought, I was like this but seeing as it keeps me up at night I'm guessing maybe it doesn't!!

Like Julia Roberts, I'm sure it'll come one day, probably when I'm not looking for it!