My Love Family of Nomads

I´m inspired about feelings and emotions. this LapLand is such a magical place. just being here. the four seasons are SO strong here. They have a HUUUGE influence into my body, mind and spirit. i travelled two years in beautiful aotaeroa so now the wintertime in the very north is "a new wow" for me! the spring time is here, a new beginning, awakening, the sun is coming back shining brighter and brighter every day and lighting up people, nature is starting to live and get colors after drowsing in it´s magical beauty and peace for few months.

i finally broke. instead of speeding i stopped. I f***ing stayed. I thought of leaving, escaping again. i saw psychologist who said to me "your just escaping from yourself, now it is better to stay and learn". difficult to accept, ooooh yeah!

there is so much growth when i have the patience to stay. it takes a lot of effort to be in the constant move. so there is less energy left to concentrate and to direct energy into something that really serves me. i love going, leaving, stepping into unknown. WE ARE ALL NOMADS in our own way. new beginnings, new surroundings, new people. what a wonderful life! what about seeing the old with beginners mind. every moment every day in the same place. that is a challenge!

I broke my heart here. I broke myself and the way i see the world. There is a very important person, my soulmate who came into my life and taught me things. He has been my mirror and it´s been a journey!

Painful. Yes, very.

And joyful. Even more.

I see myself when i watch him into his eyes. I´ve been a single for five years. I haven´t let anybody to enter my life as much as I let this person to come and hurt me, love me and change me. I was so vulnerable after my travels and he came and now I´m falling in love. And it´s f***ing AMAZING! And it´s not just falling in love, it is falling in all the emotions. love is not just love, it is so much more. it is everything.

For five years love has been joy and freedom for me. That is NOT Unconditional Love.

Fear, sorrow, anger and hurt are part of love. NOW I wanna have the whole package. I am finally ready to have them ALL in my life.

I AM READY TO CHANGE.

Love is all. I am Love.

It may be that this wonderful creature, my soulmate of a moment, is a stepping stone into something deeper with someone else.. who knows.
First I learn to Love him. Unconditionally.

i wanted to share this story with you my family. i hope it inspires you TO FIND YOUR OWN TOOLS to keep your heart open, even when traveling. even when you have broke your heart.

YOU HAVE TO KEEP YOUR HEART OPEN.
YOU HAVE TO TRUST.
It WILL mend stronger. thank you Aaron.

I closed mine when i lost my First Love, my first boyfriend.
Then I was on the road for couple of years.
And I decided I´m NOT gonna break my heart. I was healing my heart.

I made a wall around my heart. I didn´t wanna get hurt.
Now i´m tearing it down, piece by piece brick by brick.

It was a long journey. I made it my way.
I´ll keep it shorter next time.
Love is worth it.

Mmmuch Love from Lapland.
You are all WelCome to experience this Unique place anytime.

x Lumi LoveSun