HELLLLOOOO

When i packed up my bag to leave Montreal it really felt like this was the last part of my trip, that when i reached Toronto it would be over and i'd just be waiting to come home. However, having arrived here and even though i havent looked around yet or anything, i feel quite excited that i'm here, that i've made it here i guess! But it's also nice to know that i dont have to move anywhere for a while and that now it's just a matter of time until im home, rather than any vast distance really, of all the steps in my journey this is the last one. So it seems that i spent alot of my time in Montreal just thinking about my trip, my experience and whether ive changed much and that sort of thing. It's been good to step back from it and look back and i've come to gather my thoughts together into some sort of sense, and i think i understand my experience alot better now. and maybe one day i'll learn that a and lot is not one word.

And so, rather than writing all about this on the blog im just going to keep my thoughts knocking around before i come home and can explain them properly, because they might change before then i guess. but one this is for sure; as my mum said to me the other week "you probably will have changed and dont realise it" and its definitely true, Jodie said I was more positive (didnt realise i was so negative before really) and i feel much more focused and determined with things, its abit like.... clearing out the clutter from a cupboard so that you can get to things you actually want. I'm awash with metaphors these days too... i read an article today about how boredom is good for you, that a study has shown (altho technically a study can never show) that boredom helps rejuvinate the mind and allows for creativity - maybe this explains why i have so many art projects planned? Anyway, i'll upload the pics from Boston and Montreal when i get the laptop delivered. This is turning away from a travel blog now i feel, so.. yeah i guess thats it for now :)

although.... just to say that maybe this feels like a beginning again because this is the beginning of what is to come, the start of what i can achieve.