So last week was one of the scairest times I've had in such a long time!! I don't know why but trying to decide if to move in to this new flat was such a hard decision my head was such a wreck by it!!

Last week a guy in DUB, Tom, said to me he just got a job in Cactus Jacks that pays $24 a hour so I thought I may aswell hand in my resume because whats the worst that can happen?? Well I went for a interview and ended up getting the job so something had to go! By then, as much as I loved it, I was ready to leave DUB. Village Cafe was s*** and s*** money but because 15 hours of DUB was accomodation it worked out I was getting paid $9.60 a hour!! f*** that! Also Jas was being such a b**** and all everyone done there was b**** about her so I was ready to leave the negativity. So once I handed in my notice everything kinda snowballed!

Britany was living in my room at this point and her and sarah were moving into this new amazing apartment and after I knew I was leaving DUB sarah said there might be another room available for me to move into if I wanted it. After living with Euan I would always advise to stay in hostels cause thats how you meet people and have a good time but I was upp for work at 630 etc so really could use my own place. Also I would be made to move out of my own room with Joe and Oli and I didnt want to move into a random room with random people coming in and out of it all the time, sp I said I would move into this flat even though I had never seen it!!

Now I know it seems like there was nothing to be scared off and I might be complaining about nothing but I just started getting the worst feelings about it!! First thing was a day later I got a call off the landlord. Basically his wife had rent out the room to some random chick without telling him so she turned up to the flat with all her luggage etc expecting to move into sarahs room but obviously she was already there!! and my room is not as nice as hers so we werent sure if she still wanted the room or not but Matt (Our landlord) said she can move into the place next week as I needed a week to find somewhere else. So thats kinda when everything came crashing in! I had given up my job in Base, I had to move out my room tomorrow and into a place I may only have for a week and I had given all of this up for a job at a lame resteraunt with s*** costumes for what? Another $10 a hour? What if I get sacked from this job aswell? I would actually be left with nothing!! So my last shift at DUB was Saturday and I had to sort everything out on Sunday and what did I do?? Get ABSOLUTELY smashed for my last shift in DUB and have the worst NO feeling the Sunday when I had to sort out everything! I just had the worst feeling that I had given up paradise where I was making up enough money to get by, living with amaazing friends and actually enjoying my work for something that may not work out at all. I may hate my job at cactus, I may only have this amazing apartment for a week, I may get along with Sarah and Britt but they are so much closer than I am to them, what if I feel so left out and I start getting left out from things at Base?
I know all these things are so small and stupid but I felt so freaked out by it I was honestly between such a rock and a hard place!! All my s*** was everywhere, I was so hungover and I hadn't even packed a little bit!!

Luckily I had Laura there and she kinda kept me sane!! We went for lunch at KC's, got rid of he hangover by some more cider and suddenlyI felt much better about the whole situation!! So I got all my s*** packed and Joe n Oli drove me up to 5 Orchard Drive! It is such a amazing flat I really am lucky to live here, even if it's just for a week but it's looking to be long term! It even makes getting up for work at 6am enjoyable! Watching the sunrise over the whitsunday island is really gorgeous and such a amazing thing to have from your balcony! Love it!! <3