i am sorry for being rude and not writting this for ages life at the moment is just brilliant i always seem to be doing something . Its Joanne writting by the way i hope the start of uni and work after easter was lovely . Well i am just going to try and describe some of work . I work in the girls home with 3 thi and Meg , Holly and Sarah . Mondays and wed we work on the CP wards were the kids cant really move or sit up and majority are unable to talk . At first i felt so lost when expected to play ,cuddle , interact with the girls but now i love it and i am no longer shocked by the sometimes horrid treatment of the girls . It sounds harsh but otherwise i wouldnt be any use . I have even got used to the smell . Most of the volunteers contect with i few girls in particular one of mine is Juillet i have named her and she has hydro sifilis ( water on the brain ) Blind , cant walk or talk. She normal just lies in the bed and kicks her legs and feet. She now recognises me and at first used to scratch and cling to my hands and body as i tried to cuddle but today the bigest progress i mannaged to get her to sit up with my help and she was smilling !!!!!!!!! I really have fallen in love with Juilet , her respose and giggle to me stupidly singing about Jesus in her ears just fills me with such happinest . I do hate haveing to leave after ( only allowed in wards at certain times) she grips so tightly but i cant do anything just pray for her i suppose. there are so many girls who i now feel i no and recognise in the mornings the more able girls sitting outside all shout and try to hug me when i am ridding my bike not a good idea. Its lovely but sometimes work is just so mentally excagusting . I am so glad to be souranded by christians and constatly have people to pray with . My faith has grown so much its all i can rely on and i can clearly see Jesus working in the girls through us . The scary mad ward we visit on thursdays is the worst , all walk just mentally ill i used to hate it go in and just 10 or 20 girls want to hug or get there nails painted or hold your hand it was so overwhelming . Looking around so dingy 40 girls maybe some tiny and others bigger with no toys, colour or beds they dont own anything so the limited things we take in just get so excited but they dont no what to do so break or hit other girls with it . Last week i was so nervous i didnt think i can go in but Holly prayed and i actually felt the holy spirt relax me and come into the wards with me . I felt Jesus was there with me showing me what to do and hugging the girls through me . It was amazing i had so much fun playing and showing Jesus love to them . The upstairs ward i think is worse because dont respond to you trying to give them your hand or any contact but i just pray and hug them . Some of the are bigger than me with loads of cuts and scars and they spend every hour of the day in that horrid blank room rocking or tied to the walls or just wandering its so sad to realise that they dont ever even get to go outside. I no the Cp kids cant baut thats more because physically they cant walk. Well thats the main places i work we sometimes bring girls back to the CCD day care or out for i little trip . Every Friday we get to take a few girls swimming which they love. I am so blessed to be able to work her with these girls and my life outside work is great. God Bless Joanne