When will my luck change eh? 10 Months, 21 visits to hospital, 2 fractured foots, infected sap burn, mango rash, rhus dermotosis, a fractured nose, concussion, dislocated jaw, 5 stitches under my eye, a gashed chin, and a sprained ankle, you would think that nothing more would be thrown at me, because to be honest that list is long enough isnt it? So 2007 was going to be my year, a good year after living through the most difficult year of my life, surely all that pain is enough for anyone in a lifetime, let alone the short period i have had to take it all. How did i spend my day today? Sat in hospital at 11am and finally being allowed to leave at 7pm after being drugged up again. Thing is this time its alot harder than everything i have had to come through since being away, im now imobolised... in a wheel chair. I have spent a large amount of the day in tears. Torn muscle and damaged ligaments in not 1, but both of my feet, and i think most people, well those with a bit of decency and heart would understand how hard it is being unable to walk. The pain is excruciating, even sat down it has me at the point of tears, so physically im fuc*ed, emotionally also, and when you are lucky enough to have them both together, anyone would be fuc*ed mentally to. I have lots on my mind at the moment and when i keep busy i could not be happier, its just when im doing nothing, im thinking about everything. What else can i do now besides think?I have a real sense of inadaquecy and uselessness all over again. THe looks on the street, the comments, yes people care but it doesnt make it any fuc*ing easier for me. ITs quite ironic how my last tattoo was FREEDOM translated in to Hebrew. One think that distinguishes us as individuals, one thing that cant be taken away from any of us and one thing that does allow us freedom is our bodies, and i really feel that for all the good i do for others, constantly going out of my way to make someone smile, to make someone feel loved, i dont think i desreve this all over again. I tell you what though, i am owed a Tsunami of good fuc*ing karma. So 6 days before my ticket is booked home, not enough cash to go home or even change the date of my ticket, all over again, im stuck, but this time if i lose my ticket its going to cost me $1500. Not able to work, no money coming in.... for fuc*sake, let me reiterate, FOR FUC*SAKE. I need bed anyway, some shut eye and some rest, some time to consider what options if any i have left.

HAPPY UPDATE AGAIN EH.

Tomo x