- 4 April

We caught a boat down the river from Don Khong to Don Det. Approaching the island my stomach was doing flips and my head hurt so much, anxiety was exploding out of every pore.

Stepping ouff the boat onto the shore, I could tell already that Don Det was no longer the place that Mark loved so much and I felt a sigh of relief. I knew I had scattered him in the right place, Koh Phi Phi, in Thailand.

We hunted up and down the island for cheap bungalows and settled on Mr Ky's Sunset Bungalows. It was wonderful. The family ran a small farm enough to provide for themselves, so there were plenty of ducks and chickens running about with their new offspring. They owned five lovely huts and had outside facilities.

We had our own little terrace over looking the river and a view of the island that you could swim out to. We spent our days lazing in hammocks, reading books and writing in our diaries. We went for a few swims in the river too, which was definitely one of the highlights of the holiday so far.

After a lot of tossing and turning and a really bad nights sleep not helped by the thunder storm during the night, I finally persuaded myself to go to where Mark and I used to stay, Mamma Taneons.

We went in and I explained who I was and who Adam was and they recognised me immediately. They sat us down and brought us drink and food and persuaded us to stay with them for old times sake. I spent a good deal of the night in tears, I couldn't believe I was there again!

That night there was a huge thunderstorm and I was too scared to go to sleep. The following morning we lazed in hammocks and I thought of all the wonderful times I had had there. I was so glad Adam persuaded me to go back, I was so near running away and not going back. I was petrified of all the things that would flood back to me, but when I did they made me pleasantly happy. I was happy that Mamma and Papa Tan remembered Mark too. I couldn't bring myself to tell them what had happened to him, but I think they knew anyway.

Adam was incredibly supportive on Don Det and I don't I have ever loved him more.

On the fourth of April we said our emotional goodbyes with the family and they gave Adam and I white bracelets made of thread to help bring our wandering spirits back to us.