Balance!! Today was a strange day - I started to doubt a lot of things and had an overriding feeling of resentment I couldn't seem to shake. Meditation was almost impossible to find a hint of silence but I staggered through and with compassion allowed whatever was to be. Yoga didn't get any better and the thoughts came at me every which way but once again with love I let it be. Today's lecture was about tantra and sexual energies which although interesting wasn't...

Week 3! There was a small earthquake lastnight and literally everyone in the house had trouble sleeping - I think I spent most if the early hours of the morning awake and consumed in thought. The day therefore started a little edgey and everyone was in the same boat. We did a really nice thing to start the class today which was to having a sharing circle where we all were able to express how we were feeling. It was really nice to hear that everyone was having sim...

A Strange Day!! Today I woke very early but managed to lay in bed until about 6:30am. I was feeling good and started my day as usual with breakfast and then some of these strange ablutions we had been practicing. I headed down to the ashram just before 8am and started my meditation - it was incredibly difficult to focus today and after an hour and a half I had barely achieved any silence but did observe my all to familiar monkey brain making mess of my emotions. ...

Cacao Testing!! Today I woke at 6am feeling wonderful, I took some time to do a short meditation and do some affirmations before climbing out of bed. The sun was showing and the thought of nice weather upped my mood. I decided to experiment with cacao/meditation/yoga today - so I took about 15g of cacao in some hot water and then waited 30 minutes before having my breakfast. Unfortunately the cacao upset my stomach quite a bit and meant that my porridge didn't go...

Testing!! Today started wonderfully and instead of rushing down to get in some extra meditation I decided to read a little and chat with my wonderful housemates before class. Meditation started and immediately I found it difficult to concentrate and had a lot of feelings of want and uneasiness come over me. When these emotions arose its hard to seperate from them but I must continue in my practice and realize to find myself I must suffer a little - specially duri...