Today is Saturday, May 24, 2014. One week from tomorrow I begin my physical journey. The path I decided I needed to begin in order to continue this internal exploration I began about a year and a half ago. Ever since I turned 35 years of age something inside of me that I knew was always there started to burn more than it ever has and I just couldn't ignore it any longer. I had to face it, recognize it, and finally accept that the life I had been living isn't exactly what I wanted anymore. But in order to truly start the life I believe was a better life for me required me to delve deep inside myself and really be 100% honest with the choices I have made up until then. And it wasn't pretty to finally see my truths smacking me across the face like a ton of bricks. Naturally, I went through a deep dark period. I am so happy that I allowed myself the time and space to go through whatever it is I needed to go through even if at the time my world seemed to be falling apart and everything I thought I loved now meant nothing to me. I was living inside the In between of life. I had to let go of friendships I thought were life long. That was not easy. I had to learn to forgive myself from my past choices. That was Not easy. I had to learn how to forgive others for their wrong doings towards me. That wasn't easy. But then I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. My eyes started to wake up. I felt like I had been in this coma my whole life and I'm just now waking up with a whole new perspective on life. I have found a new love and respect for life like I never have before. I am learning about true compassion, respect, learning to let go, to let go of my fears because that's all that is holding me back, to give and not expect anything in return and to live your life within every moment and to be here now. Time is just a concept. Right now is all we have. Once I realized this, that's when things started to open up for me. I quit my job, I moved back into my parents home in order for me to be able to continue this new spiritual exploration on a physical level. I will be traveling around the world for 6 months. I also plan on doing volunteer work and am open to everything and anything while I'm out and about. I plan to do 2 weeks per country. I'm starting off with a friend in Indonesia for 2 weeks. Then I'm off by myself to Thailand. From there I'm going to Israel to see one of my dearest friends, Dafna, who is about to have her third child. Then I'm going to Turkey, Greece and Italy. And then I'm just open. I might come home or I might continue. I'm leaving it open. And that's where I am today. I had to turn my life upside down in order to find peace and love within myself. Believe me, I'm still in the process and will be for the rest of my life. Life is about growing. Life is about falling down and picking yourself up again. Life is about love. Love your life. That's the most important. If you truly love yourself then you can truly love in every aspect of your life. At least I see the world in this way. Mi hermosa vida.