well it has happened...i am back in bognor regis!! never saw myself actually being back home and now that i am it is so surreal!! not quite sure how to be dealing with this and i guess the first day is always going to be the weirdest!! had a fab last few days in south africa. went out for lunch in sandton city again and the last day we went to bass lake - an old mining quarry that flooded out and has now become a popular diving place. braaied with friends and swam with the boys. such a fun last day and made it easier than just sitting round waiting for the airport! hayley bought me some sushi to try and it was actually nicer than i thought it would be!! ; ) swimming with the boys and jumping of the jetti was great fun...will miss hearing "georgie, come swim!!" ; ) time ran out though and had to say bye to the boys...first tears of the day and drove home pretty much in silent as we all pondered what was coming next!!; ( got home to finish packing and had enough time left for one last sundowner in the garden! want to forget about all the goodbyes - even though i try and look at them as 'see you laters', i still get so upset! its just the thought of not knowing when you will see them again, all mixed with the emotions of coming home and ending the trip. checked in at the airport, had a couple more savannas! and said the last goodbye before getting through security. bought a few bits in the airport - including my last bag badge of my travels! and pulled myslef together until take off when the tears came again!! sitting next to 2 strangers, they must have thought i was right strange!! - got separated from mum and dad unfortunately on the plane. managed to sleep most of the way and landed about 5am. picked up our luggage, not forgetting larry the giraffe! and headed out to our waiting taxi. the drive back is a bit of a blur and not sure if its cos of tiredness or cue to the rain on the windscreen!! i still had flip flops on and refused to wear a jumper - seeing my breath in the air was a bit of a shock!! saw the signs for bognor regis and i got the sinking feeling!! sounds awful...i guess ive been used to getting out of an sirport and finding a cab to take us to a hostel...not quite an hours journey back to my house! walking in the house was surreal for the first time and so was seeing my cats! not sure they recognised me but i think im forgiven now for leaving them!! couldnt wait any longer to see my brother, sister in law and niece so gatecrashed theres!! and spent the next 3 hours getting jessica to recognise me!! ; ) caught up with kirsty this afternoon and now back home...still cant believe i am sitting here writing this!! again, the tears are welling up. i guess its all a little overwhelming and im not sure what i miss the most...the friends ive made, the concept of travelling, my family in south africa or the security and stability of knowing what im doing and where im going. got a fair few decisions on my plate now and its scary...all i want to do is get straight back on that plane! oh to win the lottery...the next best thing though is a chinese takeaway, a savanna and a good film...exactly what ive got planned for the next couple of hours. so i guess this is the end of my online journal. thats a sad thought! i hope youve had fun reading these entries and hope to catch up with you properly soon! hopefully it wont be too long before im in the skies again heading off on another adventure...or at least a month down the line and i know where i stand and what im doing!! ; ) love always and thanks so much for following my trip. as you've probably guessed its been the time of my life and i cant wait for next time...take care, Georgie x x x