So as grateful as I am to be on this amazing adventure it still has its disadvantages. Today was just one of those days that I wish I could have back . I missed something so important to me. My most wonderful friend in the entire world become a mommy today! Even though she has a wonderful husband by her side and she didn't really need me there it still makes me so sad that I couldn't be there for her they way she has always been there for me. It's times like these that make me wonder if I really want to lead this life. Don't get me wrong I love it but then I always have to miss wonderful life events. I am even going to miss the birth of my next nephew in the next few months. :( so I pray that everyone in my life knows that from the bottom of my heart I wish I could be 10 places at once and be there for every special moment...