Well i have been on the ship for 4 days.. wow it feels like a lifetime already. I decided last nite after a nice email from my best friend and a talk to my mom that i need to stop being so negative and look at all the amazing adventures ahead of me. But before i start this positive ship life for the next 9 months i need to vent and get all the the stuff that has made me crazy the last 4 days, and then i promise to only tell you all the wonderful things i get to experiance. lol.. alright well lets start with the first day. I arrive to the ship and get put into a cabin with a roomate that doesnt work in the spa which means we have totally different working hours which makes it tough. So they tell me that not to unpack because i will be moved on wed. Alright so then i went into work. They sent me to some ship training which was really boring and then told me that i had the rest of the day off to get settled. Well i tried to get around the ship but it is all so confusing that i got lost a few times. So then the following day i went to work at 8am only to be sent of to ship training again for a couple hours. oh wow was it boring! They talked for so long about what we would do if the ship was sinking and its pretty sad but as they were going over it again and again all i could think about was "dang if the ship was sinking i would just say it wasnt ment to be and go down with it" haha i know that sounds terrible but maybe i was just really tired and didnt want to listen to someone talking for 2 hours. Alright after training i headed back to the spa to start working! whoo hoo right!? no... the cruise we are on right now is a charter so everyone on board is japanese and they dont speak english! oh wow have you ever tried to do someones hair and you cant understand what they are saying!? it sucks... then at the end of the day my manager says we need to do better and sale more retail!? what?! how am i supposed to sale to people that i cant talk to? Oh and then in the middle of the day this lady came into the spa and said if we were sinking right now where would i go!? i just looked at her and siad "i dont even know how to get back to my cabin!" my manager wasnt too happy about that :/ opps.... anyway the day finally ended and i just went to my cabin to call home but my roomate works at 3am and i dont get off till 10pm so i had to be quiet. I just went to sleep and thought I would try the next day to make it better. Next day I woke up nice and early took my time to get ready made my way to breakfast, then to the spa. After standing around the spa for about an hour I had a guest! i was so excited to do a haircut and it went smooth for the most part but somewhere near the end i thought it started to feel really warm. I had another guest right after and it was just a shampoo and blow dry. I finished the shampoo and then realized i was about to throw up all over this ladys hair. So i excused myself quickly and got to the bathroom just in time. Rushed back thinking i had to finish my guest but my manager gave it to the other hairstylist :( She then took me into her office and told me to take some pills and drink some water but i still had to finish the day. I was thinking holy crap i have 12 more hours and it was a sea day so it wasnt going to calm down at all. Luckly she let me sit for a bit before i took another client around 1230. It was a teeth whitening service which is really easy but as i was standing there cuz the light is on the client for 16 mins i had to throw up again. But i couldnt excuse myself cuz i was in a treatment room and she was asleep (at least i think she was)... so i just turned around and threw up in the sink! ahhhh isnt that terrible!? I really hope she didnt see me.. good thing i didnt have anything to eat so it wasnt too bad but still if i was the client i would have refused to pay.. that is the most unprofessional thing that i have ever done! She seemed happy when she left so hopefully she never saw a thing, then again i couldnt understand her anyway so who knows! Well I ended up gettting sick a few more times that day and i thought for sure i need to get off this ship! Since jumping the ship in the middle of the ocean wasnt an option ( but i did look off the side for a bit i cant lie lol) i just thought let me get to bed and then tmrw will be a better day! ... So yesterday I cried a lot because i just miss everyone but i talked to some of the girls i work with and they said that they only way to get through it is to make sure to get out and see all the places we get to go. I thought alright and i went down to make sure I had all i needed to get off the ship the next day since we would be in shanghai. Everything seemed to play out and i started to relax a little bit. I was actually looking forward to getting off the ship today since i had the afternoon off so i went out for a drink last nite and woke up extra early to go pick up my passport from HR. Only for them to tell me i cant get off the ship cuz i dont have a seamans book!!! what!? why didnt you tell me that yesterday!? So i asked when i would get it... she replies : in about 2 months!!!! wtf!? i was so mad! .. and now i am sitting on a computer paying to use the internet just pissed! but i am trying to remain calm and remember that God is still in control and i think is trying to help my grow from this experiance. So from here on out i am going to wake up and thank God for all the opportunities he has placed in front fo me and make the best of it. And i also want to thank everyone that had been there for me the whole way here. I know for sure I have been blessed with a great family and friends. Even if being here is only to help me appriciate everything and everyone in my life then i am it is worth it. I love you all and I cant wait to share all the wonderful places I get to see in the next 9 months. till next time!

(sorry the grammer sucks... i have to hurry cuz the longer i take the more $ i spend)